2008/01/14
Changes I am (what I call) an observer... I watch everything that happens, and I analyze the contingencies of each plausible scenario involved with the situation I am observing... chalk it up to free time and paranoia, if you will... anyways... I am always shocked to see the reasons that people give for doing the things that they do...

I am not a great person... nor do I have a lot of self-respect... most people think that I am an asshole, and I voice my opinions publicly... basically, I don't care about things... I like to think that I am easy-going, smart, and fun (to the people I choose to be fun with)... but what I am not... is understanding... it is something that I struggle with on a daily basis... I watch, and I listen, but I can't understand the reasons that people choose the path that they take. Somethings are completely simple in my eyes, and other things are just far too complicated for me to completely grasp... maybe that is why I find it so hard to allow people justification for the actions that they take... I hold long grudges... I never forget...

My relationships are based on mutual simplicity... NONE are strong and withstanding friendships that transcend mere acquaintance bonding.

I get a lot of flack for the things that I write on my blog... I write what I am feeling at the moment... maybe I don't give people enough credit... but there is always a price to be paid... // sk0t @ 10:01 AM :: Comments [8] :: Digg This ::

2008/01/07
Once a ____, always a _____ ! You know, I hung out with some 'friends' tonight, (for the first real time in a while)... it was the usual 'fun'... but things are so different since I went to prison: unadulterated fun can't be had anymore. I have changed... my uncanny ability to care even less than before was increased exponentially. I find myself caring less and less as each day progresses.
I know that not everyone can be like me... carefree... un-altruistic... but when does it come a time for you to take what is rightfully yours... the opportunity to just let life go. Hang out for a while... stop thinking about the ropes that tie you to the outside world, and just chill with your crew for a minute.

I used to think that my crew ran deep... (a long time ago)... now I'm not so sure... // sk0t @ 11:56 PM :: Comments [0] :: Digg This ::